Trigger warning....inner real
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Quote:
Originally Posted by Luce
You are welcome here, AC. All of you are welcome here. I miss you when you are not here. I wonder how you're doing. I worry that you are not okay. Your guys are welcome here. Your gals are welcome here. Your DID is welcome here.
I would hope this is one place you *can* be 'you' (plural) just as we can be us too.
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Thank you....in our exuberance of an eureka moment...we did overly outward embarrassing things through individual expression, but now it's like an anvil chained to our ankles of which has been taken wrong I guess. Anyways...
Ultimately.....now that the honeymoon is over....we are back to reality and what this has meant and that done to us from birth....
We are devastated. Our path to demise has been kicked off and there isn't any forseeable hope in our life for life.
Our M.I. (DID BIPOLAR) has left us lost daily....floating, drifting, staying in routine to stay stabile, fake smiling but switching to fake it, empty, scared, always triple checking, analyzing every gesture, action or words, racing thoughts in multiple voices, unsuredness, lost, foggy minded, fear, shame, embarrassment, anxiety panic attacks, memory loss, distracted, tranced, on gaurd, paranoid, inner strife, agitation, constant switching....lost of identity, turmoil, bad thoughts, stress, physical pain, other people's attitudes, ......a daily moment to moment existence.
We have given most of our stuff away and told our son that he better get on with his life away from me/us.
Prolonging the torture....why?