I think life does matter but I also thing comfort is a wonderful thing and being comfortable with less is never a bad thing. When I get depressed I sometimes feel like you do now and even contemplate selling everything I own and living in a van. Just enough comfort until I die cause that's all I'm doing when depressed....waiting for and wishing for death to take me away and end all my pain and sorrows. But when I come out of the depression my love for all things returns and I find meaning in everything. I hope you find some meaning too and your loneliness ends because loneliness is a real killer. (((Hugs)))