I don't feel I need the help. I'mean not thinking or talking about suicide. My thoughts of self harming if acted upon fully would cause my death. Now I have no intention of acting on them and they are with me no matter the mood or amount of meds I take. I've learned to live with them and deal with them without self harming. Even if I were to self harming, it's been over a year, it be incredibly superficial as I keep the safety on the razor.