The thing is that I rarely sh only when I'm mixed / psychotic have a clear reason why. Sh isn't even on the table at this or any other point since she has seen me. Iop/ php is worse in my opinion because it's longer and gives me more time to worry and the driving back and forth. If my reasons are going to make her think I need iop more I wont bring it. We have to talk about this because I worry that she doesn't realize this is me healthy ish.