Dear All,
It is the night before the procedure and I have been awake all night. I just feel so unattractive, gross and yuk and I really hate my body and I hate being female. I just don't think I will ever feel remotely attractive again. I have real issues with female body parts and exposing them while unconscious and a team of people putting stuff into me. I know I have to go through with this or I'll bleed to death (currently day 44 of non stop bleeding is about to arrive). But I just don't think I can handle any of this psychologically. Boyfriend is happily asleep, doesn't understand why I am so ashamed or horrified or in tears over it all. I just feel that my body always betrays me and let's me down and ruins my life and self esteem. I went through an auto immune disease diagnosis which ripped apart the only relationships that I had with a man who wanted to have children with me and now here I am after 35 years of menstruation nightmares about to go in for this procedure slotted in between ladies having children and I haven't even had a child. I just feel like my life is a waste...help.