I can sometimes hide it too well. And it's really hard for me to open up when I'm highly delusional so I can't tell them a large portion of what's going on which is hard.

I definately think it's a good idea to take notes with you. I think if you put it to them how you've put it to us (which I condensed into a few very important sentences" which are essentially quotes you have made, they will be able to help you better. (((Hugs)))