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Old Nov 24, 2016, 04:53 PM
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Originally Posted by Cdnstargazer View Post
I work in Healthcare. My rotations are 7am-3pm or 3pm-11pm. Occasionally I take doubles, usually 3pm-7am... crazy? Well I used to do them all the time
I enjoyed being paid 4k or more a month.

I haven't done them regularly for months, as my dr suggests against them and they seem to make my cycles worse (surprise surprise) and all around ****** from hell comes out. I don't enjoy ***** from hell. I really don't. I get impulsive and down right angry full of rage.

But my partner is trying to encourage me to work two do one to two doubles a pay period. I miss the money... I do. But .... I'm terrified of myself.

Most people are scared of spiders, but
I'm scared of myself. Especially when I don't have any PRNS and can't control my tornado of modds etc.

I've tried explaining this to my spouse but we're still trying to catch up on bills from when I was unwell.

Thoughts?
I work in healthcare too (I'm an RN), & have very similar rotating shifts to you. No matter how good the money is it isn't worth getting sick over. Shift work sent me batty eventually, I also became an angry, obsessive & impulsive ***** who was unable to function without prns & MJ. Now I'm working mainly am shifts I'm in a much better place mentally & stopped smoking.
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Rx: Lamotrigine 125mg, Sertraline 50mg, Clonazepam 0.5mg prn.
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