Shadix, it sounds like you need to make some new friends. The fact that they would even say that they're not that nice is a big red flag unless they happened to be joking about that of course.

If they make you feel that bad, then why do you hang out with them? Go to a meetup event. It's free to join. You are focusing way to much on caring about coming across as wanting to be seen or treated a certain way.

And you care way to much about what other people think of you. I'm working now and I often feel like you do, but I don't give a **** about what those people at work think of me. I tried being nice to them, and I do say hi to the nice people there who talk to me and say hi back to me, but to the ones that don't, I ignore them unless I need help with something or I need to ask them about something.

I'm fairly new at this job, but I'm quitting that job soon for a better one. People who treat you badly for no apparent reason aren't worth wasting your time or energy on. They suck, so why do you even give a damn about what they think? There is something wrong with them. Why would anyone want to hang around anyone who seems to think it's OK to be rude to them, or to only be "nice" to them out of pity?

You have some self esteem issues that you need to work on. The other day a whole group of my coworkers all just stood there as I was leaving my shift and I said bye to everyone, but they all just stood there and stared at me.

Eff those *****ess. I'll be out of there soon. Who cares what people like that think? They're NOT better than you. I like what seesaw said. It's better to have a thoughtful kind friend than one who's funny but a jerk.

You definitely need to focus on your good qualities and stop thinking that you're awful for not being funny or charismatic. Find people who will appreciate your thoughtfulness and kindness. You do sound smart, but stubborn and negative. You need to work on that. Stop worrying so much about what others think of you. They're probably not judging you or thinking all these bad things about you. I think you just assume that.

If they are though, and you have proof of that, then find some better friends.