I began drinking for the effect at age 24 and drank safely for about two years before I began losing control over how much I drank. I later learned that is caused by a metabolic abnormality that only ever grows worse over time...and I would gladly share more about that and my overall recovery either here or privately if you might ever wish to hear it. I eventually arrived at a point where I could live neither with drinking nor without it, and there is where I began learning how to live in the face of everything else.