I haven't posted or been around these forums in a while, because well things were going great for me, but like the bipolar wave it all came crashing down. I am hollow, and so empty. I have so many people in my life and they all cannot bring me comfort in my worst state that I am now.

Why do we push people away when we crave company so badly? I want to be comforted yet I don't want to be bothered. It is so confusing, frustrating, perplexing and just leaves me feeling so sad.

I am broken. I have nothing to my name, and will probably end up homeless one day. The future feels so bleak, and the present feels painful.

Why was I cursed with bipolar, especially this horrible low? I love to ride the highs, but when I am sinking, it feels like my whole world is falling down.

I am hollow, I have an empty heart, I am depressingly bipolar.