I have a low average IQ that's presented a real problem with finding meaningful work and living on my own. I have a verbal IQ of 94 and a performance IQ of 77; this comes out to a grand total of 85 which means I'm 10 points smarter than Forest Gump. My score of 85 was on the WAIS-III, and as I understand the WAIS IV, the current test that's out, lowers your IQ by 5 points. I'm only a few points away from needing a job coach for having a developmental disability.

Anyway, I'm almost 40 and I decided to attempt to go back to finish a degree program recently. I thought that after living with my parents and working a mundane, meaningless, entry-level job for over a decade, it would be a good idea to finish a degree and get a more interesting job. The problem is my cognitive limitations impair my ability to do course material that requires abstract reasoning. This past semester I attempted to take 2 courses that required something I'm not good at, thinking, and I dropped them 2 weeks at the beginning of the semester. I have only taken 6 credits total this semester, and I feel that as the course material gets progressively more difficult, I will not be able to gey by.

If I drop out again and go back home to live with mommy and daddy I will look like more of a loser than I did before. I have a history of starting and stopping things because I think I'm smart enough, and then reality sets in and I fail. I'll probably end up with a B and a C in the 2 courses that I took this semester; I haven't done anything except go to school part time and my performance may be average. I'm getting older, my parents are getting older, and I don't know what the hell I'm going to do with myself. I could go back to warehouse work but that's physically demanding, soul crushing, and I would have to start back over. I feel like there's really no need to go on somedays.