Hello Divagirl10: I'm sorry you are having such a difficult time. Hopefully coming here to PC can be of some comfort & support. You know... suicidal thinking is nothing to try to ignore. So if you continue to struggle with thoughts of wanting to end your life, it is important to reach out, in real life, for the help you need. I know you wrote that you see a therapist whom you like as a person but whom you wrote is not helping you. It may be that you need to try seeing someone else. Not every therapist works well with every client. But also, if you continue to struggle, you may want to consider the possibility of trying some psych med's at least on a temporary basis.

Anyway, since this is your firsts post here on PC... welcome to PsychCentral… from the Skeezyks! I hope you find the time you spend here to be of benefit.

PsychCentral is a great place to get information as well as support for mental health issues. There are many knowledgeable & caring members here. The more you post, & reply to other members’ posts, the more a part of the community you will become. Plus there are social groups you can join & chat rooms where you’ll be able to connect with other PC members in real time (once your first 5 posts have been reviewed & approved.) Lots of great stuff! So please keep posting!