Not sure how I'm doing. Delusions with insight are still in effect. I'm very sick and in a lot of pain...sleeping a lot....restless....limited interest in continuing with all this pain and sorrow....but not clinically depressed from my perspective. Just taking it easy. Making subtle plan to augment my future in positive ways. Still feeling hopeful I can accomplish some goals and see brighter tomorrows. The pain makes me worry its all grandiose....but my will is strong and where there is a will there is a way? Or is that just a figure of speech or cliche I should take no stock in? Not sure but still hopeful regardless.