I think this is a good time to start with a support group. I began attending a sexual assault survivors group and they dealt with sexual assault in all its forms, from adolescence to adulthood, friends, family, to strangers. You could pick the groups you wished to attend. I would hope you would have a center like this where you live. This seriously changed my life. I was the victim of sexual assault as "date rape" several times and got over it but when it happened from a stranger I knew I needed further help and found this local center through my therapist and it was life changing. It was all free but you had to be accepted as a member (I'm sure you would be). Please look into it. Group therapy with others with similar experiences is more effective than one on one and the art therapy, which I would have scoffed at, was so insightful! Wow, it really helped me get past that dark period in my life. Before that I was like you, glued to the TV all day, couldn't concentrate, drinking more than usual, horrible panic attacks and insomnia (until I was prescribed medication that basically knocked me out). Please try therapy..... Keep me updated if possible Sending hugs and love.