I dreamed last night that my husband was yelling at me. He never yells/gets angry in that fashion, I've never been afraid of him. During the dream I was really upset that he was yelling at me, it was like I had made some kind of mistake and caused it. When I woke I had to work to realize it was a dream and he hadn't yelled at me and I didn't deserve to be yelled at, hadn't done anything wrong, wasn't contemplating :-) doing anything wrong in the real near future.

I think your dream is really interesting Esther, what I find most interesting is that you ran off and wouldn't listen to his explanation! There is no explanation for molestation! He could not possibly explain and you knew that (even as a kid) and ran off right then so as not to listen to his male bovine's waste product. I think your father "had trouble" with you when you were a child because you could see through him and he didn't like that. But I think maybe you haven't been giving yourself enough credit for how "smart" you were as a kid/are now.

I think your cousin represented you at the time and so there were two you's, the dreamer you "watching" and not putting up with your father's "explanation", wisely running off to keep yourself safe, and the "cousin" you who was just a stand-in. There was nothing you could do as a child against your "stronger" father, no way you could rescue the "cousin" other than how you did deal with it. I think it's a great dream, showing how well you are doing/"growing up" now.