My H has trouble with rigid black and white thinking which is sometimes irrationally negative and harmful. He used to make blanket generalizations about women which were untrue and unkind. Maybe consider the possibility that your thinking about women and relationships may be disordered and need changing. If you can learn to value yourself, and autonomy, and everyone's right to be themselves and have their own unique desires and interests etc. I think you would have improved relationships. Not everyone wants everyone else to think they're awesome. I'm perfectly fine with having meaningful relationships, and having others who are neutral to me, knowing some here and there dislike me or admire me for my personality (decisive, stubborn, etc.) depending on their own preferences. Real life is not a popularity contest.. I think you should work on the fact that you have beliefs about yourself and others that are causing you loneliness.