Dear Longing

Please just grow up already.

You've wasted more thank half a lifetime living in your head, using fantasy to either scare the beejesus out of yourself if soothe yourself. There is an actual world out there with people in it who manage to get up every morning, engage with one another and get stuff done without all the carry on about fear and triggers and trauma - just follow their example and get on with it.

And as for all this garbage about me taking care of you or abusing you or doing both at once - well, what do you expect? Your a half-there human being choosing to live a half-life.

You won't even care for or protect yourself. Why should anyone else do it?

Oh, and the 'memories' you think you made up? If you think they're made up, they probably are.