Last night trauma was triggered in me and I became almost out of control. The nurses medicated and watched me and my friend talked me down via Facebook. I am so lucky to have that support. My friend was wonderful, he encouraged me, made me laugh, told me how precious i am to him (as a friend - damn, cause i have a crush on him but he has a girlfriend) and that he would be bereft without me. He told me i am one of his best friends. He kept me alive last night. I am so thankful.

This morning I feel fragile and hope a swim in the ocean will lift my spirits. I just need to avoid triggers somehow. I still have little hope for myself and am in the dark. Maybe a day in the sun will help. vit d an all. My parents are a great support to but they can trigger me occasionally, which is sad. They are the best parents in the world.

Send me all the good vibes you can so I can end this day with hope and peace.