Loneliness is a hell of an emotion. I will tell you that. I'm not sure if I am depressed, lonely, or both. I suspect both. I'm starting to think things like, "I want to join a community choir," even though I'm shy. And I want to take an improv class, even though again, I am so shy about stuff like that and too scared to even try.

But yeah, I felt very lonely and isolated today even though my family (mom and dad) was around. I still feel this way, but it helps to talk about it.

Tomorrow, I'm going to my meditation group, and to church, even though i don't feel like it. This is why I think I'm depressed. Because I don't feel like doing the stuff I know could help. But i will try. I know it's harder for people like me, to get out, because of depression. But I won't give up. Perhaps I can talk to my psych nurse about medication change.