Well I can tell you from experince that my depression caused me to keep moving. Much like a shark has to in order to stay alive. I felt that if I did not keep moving then I would hit rock bottom. In order to keep that from happening I started using negative unhealthy emotions, Anger really. So once I started working on my anger, I started to feel as if I was losing control. Then one day I lost complete control and fell deep into darkness. I spent three days in the hospital and once they started giving my my meds things started getting a little better. I am four months out of the hospital and I feel as if the whole world is different. I can see now that the blinders are gone and can think much clearer. I now feel like I don't have to keep moving and I am much more rational now. Emotions are a very tricky thing. I hope that you do much better. PM anytime.

Dragon