For only the second time in my life, I am dreading the holidays. Thanksgiving was all right, but facing this first Christmas without my husband is breaking my heart. I don't know what to do with these feelings. I have absolutely NO interest in decorating or buying gifts, and other than the year when we lost everything (2014), I've always loved this season and gone all out to make the perfect Christmas for everyone. I'm not depressed; I am merely very sad, and the sooner we get through the holidays the better I'll feel. Anyone else experiencing something similar?