During my depressive episode and even my mixed, it wasn't that bad; I had a lot of control and a lot of good progress grounding myself. The suicidal impulse was strong but not my PTSD. I've noticed that now that I'm hypomanic, not sleeping and just having an insane amount of energy; I'm extremely trigger sensitive right now. I was just laying with my fiance and stared up at the light, next thing I know my fiance's trying to calm me down out of a flashback. I've also had a lot more panic attacks in the past week.
The doc gave me Trazadone but I don't take it. Makes the dissociation and depersonalization episodes worse; that I generally feel like crap the day after.