Your children sound wonderful. I am glad that one of your son's cared enough to kick the door down. I honestly understand why he thought you might have OD'd. I know you need many of your psych meds and pain medications to function but you are ruining your health by taking more than the doctor has prescribed. You have to be strong for your sons. It will not be easy. One of the first things you have to do is make yourself not take more pills than prescribed and to stop drinking until this whole mess is over. If you can do that, then you will be more clearheaded about taking steps to seperate from you H.