I might call him later today. I have my appointment tomorrow, though. I'm just getting nervous due to it's intensity. Sometimes I get a break, like right now where I can just sit on a computer and switch between multiple tabs and type. Other times, I just feel like I need to run for no reason. Or I have to put half my body out the window of a moving car so I can feel the wind and see the stars. I'm starting to feel like an adrenaline junky.

It's like, I know what's happening isn't right, but I don't actually realize it until after the fact and when people get mad at me for it.