I am not sure if I am hypomanic right now, the last ten days I went to bed at between two and six in the morning. I am not doing my work right because I can't concentrate. Yesterday I reached the summit it seems. I went to a party, got hammered and started to show my muay thai skills. One guy really liked it and so we went to the street and fought (just for fun). I completely underestimated it and realized this morning that I really got hurt and might need to go see a doctor. I am so unhappy about the fact that this keeps happening to me. I just want to be responsible and quiet and to things that are good for me but I just seem to need that kick so much. How can I get better? I enjoy all the craziness that comes with hypomania but each time I feel like trash afterwards and get so angry at myself for not managing better.