I just have to get this out there. I've been feeling numb, as if my emotions have just completely left my body. I haven't really had a good cry in weeks, but I haven't been overly joyful either, I just feel like a lump on a log if that makes any sense. There was a part of me that felt as if my going home for Thanksgiving would make things better, but I feel it has only made things worse, and now I'm dreading going home for Christmas in a few weeks. Think I'll just go back to bed and maybe I won't wake up. I'm tired of feeling this way and just want it all to stop.