I need to start keeping extra focused on my weight for a while, maybe it'll help with this feeling of failure. My doctor put me on Prozac this week, and told me to be sure to watch for any gain. I'm a little terrified of that possibility, to be honest. I had (and still have) so much anxiety about my meds affecting my weight, and now I'm being warned about it. But I'm going to work on being "good". I've been trying to keep closer to 1,000 calories a day lately, and that's been going well.