I keep having periods of sensory overload where I can't stand being conscious; I just want to scream and smash things. I oversleep. When I'm awake, I can't concentrate. I'm having self-harm thoughts again and overdosing is sounding like a more and more reasonable idea.
It's starting again. This is how it starts. Make it stop, please. I want to live and this beast wants me dead.
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dx: schizoaffective bipolar type; OCD; GAD
rx: clozapine, clonazepam PRN
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