Hi DaX: I'm sorry you are continuing to struggle with this. I know, from reading your previous posts, that it has been going on for a long time. Of course, I don't know if how your mom treats you is because you were adopted. I suppose it could be. But it may also simply be the type of person she is. There are certainly many people out there whose biological parents have treated them equally badly.

I wish I had some suggestions for you here. I am heartened by the fact you have not cut in 2 months & are trying to be strong. I can imagine how difficult this must be for you. I hope that, in some way you can manage to believe this is not your fault. It is your mom's issue. And despite how she treats you, you are a good person who is deserving of love & support. So I send hugs your way with the hope that you might be able to find deep peace within...