"Push my button and watch me pop" was a warning I began broadcasting in my early twenties, so your self-awareness and your ability to avoid the "pop" are way ahead of where I was at your age and I commend you for that. I have never found any quick-and-easy eliminators for my deeply-rooted anger, but I no longer fear or loath myself and A.A.'s Twelve Steps are what have made the difference. Those Steps are not for alcoholics only, and I would gladly show you how I have benefited from them if learning to live by spiritual principles might be of interest to you.