It's hard to believe that something that happened so long ago,when I was 3 years old,has had such an impact on my life like it has.

It was extremely violent though.

I have been sweating so profusely the past week or so,I can deal with that.I have been so jumpy and I mistake things as a person,for example,I let my dog out the back door a little bit ago and for a brief second the swingset in the back yard looked like a person.A couple of days ago I opened the door to let my dog in and he was behind the door as I opened it,and when he popped his head around it I screamed.I think that is the hardest thing to deal with.

Everything feels like a threat to my safety,sounds are magnified,shadows seem so ominous.I feel so irritable and breathless.

But I also know this will eventually pass.