I'm glad you took your friends advice and posted here. It's good to say all that not just verbally but even through your fingertips as you type the words. It's good to see them on the screen and know this is you, who you are and what you have been. It's good for all of us to see your words, you helped keep me sober today. Thank you for your courage and determination. I am only a pm away...anytime I can help, reach out.