For past months my physical health gets worse and worse. But at least i started to fight with anxiety, panic, and agoraphobia. Anyway, I used to have intrusive thoughts, images in my head, feelings like something or somone invisible would be around me, depersonalization, derealization.. Used to, then it just went away, i dont even know when.. But tonight when i tried to sleep i had sudden image in my head that someones sitting on my bed and is watching me.. It was like a trigger that summoned weird intrusive pictures and images to my head, i feel so unreal, feel like going crazy.. Knowing my therapist he would say its just my anxiety disorder messing with my mind.. But it feels so strange, i again feel gigantic fear of schizophrenia, of losing control over myself..
Irony of life, i wanted to quit psychotherapy since lately the therapist annoys me a lot, yet right now i feel i need to talk with him asap..