Yeah I guess that is what I thought, that they would think I was nuts......and yes my old T wants me to go to the hospital, my new T say's we can work together and help keep me out of the hospital. I wasn't going to say no to the hypnosis sessions, they work for me. I had the first tonight and was able to find my safe place again and relax in his office felt like the first time I had relaxed in forever.

I like my old T alot, he is wonderful, and we connect. He knew I needed more then he is skilled at so that is why I have the trauma therapist also. When I got to his office tonight, we talked alittle, he asked if I wanted to tell him what has been going on the past week or just relaxation tonight, I told him I really need to just relax I feel like a rubber band about to break, he was ok with that, we set up tomorrow's session and Wednesday's, he scheduled me a full hour on Wednesday to talk then do the hypnosis.

I guess I was getting myself worked up, thinking that they saw what I feel, that I am not able to be helped........that is how I feel these days, that nothing is going to work.......so when he asked me about doing the daily thing, my fear came to the forefront.