I've done therapy on and off. I would get the same feelings as you "why am I here...what is this going to accomplish....how is this going to help me in anyway". I don't think I was ready for therapy back then. I wish I would have stuck with it to be sure but I would always quit. Now I'm getting therapy and use it as part of my support team. I also have PTSD issues I need to work through. Talking is very hard....being vulnerable is very difficult. I'm committed to making progress and am utilizing any tools available which might contribute to progress. It's too early to know if therapy will do any long term good but I'm thinking positive and plan to get anything and everything out of it that I can. (((Good luck and hugs)))