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Originally Posted by TishaBuv
Not even a blip on my radar as I am lost down the well of relationship hell.
Why can't I control my emotions in this? I'm sitting here actually contemplating asking for serious drugs again in order to stay in it. Like I want to exorcise my personality in order to be the Stepford wife, so I can stay. Like I want to be given a lobotomy. Why?
Today is Day 1 without him (even though I'll see him at the therapist's). Let me just make it to Day 2, and so on... I LIKE ME. If my emotions are out of control in this, it means I am miserably unhappy in this.
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I think what you're feeling is perfectly normal.
I think that some of us are not as strong as others here. I'm not strong. I have a difficult time with the grief of ending any sort of relationship (I can't speak about marriage, but if I can't deal with a friendship ending, then I would be dead by my own hand if my marriage did)....
I have learned, from the kind folks here, that it's okay to feel however you feel. It doesn't hurt any less to know this, it simply is a kind of solace to know that you're in no way inferior to anyone else.
Keep posting and keep trying...