I often question my DX because although I fit every symptom of depression and get hypo at times, my mania doesn't fit the criteria it seems. I do get dysphoric when mixed. Everything I read makes mania sound euphoric and spontaneous and sometimes fun. I do not get like that. When I'm mixed/manic, I don't sleep and I become very sensitive to sound. I also hear things. The biggest symptom is uncontrollable anger or dysphoria. I'll start fights over crazy stupid stuff, tell people off without hesitation, drive recklessly beeping my horn in anger. I have to stay in my room when I get like this to keep me from screaming at people. And I do impulse shopping whether I'm sick or stable. But I don't get up and clean or any of that "typical" stuff. If anything I wallow in my home by myself hating life. But my depression is different. I sleep a lot and lose interest in everything l.

There was a manic phase when I was 18. I stayed up for days then had the wonderful idea to sign up for beauty school. Ugh. That was when I was DX'ed.

So am I still BP even though I don't have the same mania as the typical BP? Wishful thinking? Lol.