I've been emailing with tdoc - who I will meet on Wednesday - about my situation, and she suggested I go to the ER tomorrow if I'm still feeling the way I am now.

What I told her: I'm having urges to buy razors. I'm having racing thoughts and I can't concentrate on reading (I'm a grad student). I'm having issues with sensory overload too. I've also had some trouble with med compliance.

Am I really that bad? To be fair, I did self-harm slightly tonight. But I don't think that means I need hospital. I really don't want to go to hospital.