I just feel like every few weeks I have to Piece my life back together. As soon as my mood changes my Memory of the past Episode is basically wiped out. I cling to my diaries to remember that life has not always been like this. I mainly Forget what it was that i have been doing for the past weeks. I mainly feel like it has always been like this and then I remember, reading something or trying to recall something that I had different Feelings just a week ago. That is why for years I have been dividing my life in phases or saying it was a different life. I also have a very bad short term Memory when I am hypo. I Forget if I have taken a medication, withdrawn Money, asked a question, Forget what I was about to do, Forget almost everything and feel the urge to write things down so I wont loose my head.