I was relieved to get my diagnosis. When I first entered the mental health system, everyone thought I was faking it. They even told me that I had to have copied my SI from someone else or from a movie. They told me if I never had been sexually abused (which I haven't) then I was making it all up. And I got a ton of diagnoses beforehand. First was bipolar. Then was double depression. Finally they at least settled on major depression reoccurring. Then later, I got the anxiety diagnosis. They still can't make up their mind what it is: GAD, social anxiety, anxiety disorder NOS, or part of the BPD. But at least I'm being treated for anxiety.

And then there's the BPD. Yeah, not a great diagnosis to have, but it fits. Especially since they took away the requirement of sexual abuse. It's a relief to be able to say I'm not alone in this world. That it is real. And that's why I struggle. I can look back at my past and see the early symptoms.

So I definitely feel validated and less alone.