they dont see me for who i am, but for issues i face

sure im avoidant... i have severe ptsd... i can't drive so dont have a car (due to ptsd)
i cant work because of issues

so they think im a loser, maybe i am a loser... but im the nicest guy, most dedicated, hardest working, type of person i know... but none of the qualities matters when your 'social standing' is so low...

doesnt seem to matter that im working so hard to make my life better.. or matter how hard everything is for me

im really about to just give up all hope that its possible for someone like me to ever have a real meaningful relationship, even more so to be able to fall in love with someone that can love me back

and my pathetic birthday is right around the corner, december 6th... to celebrate alone again, im going to get so wasted ill have to recover for a week..