I'm having that problem real bad. Part of me is admitting to myself I'm bipolar, another part is saying I just happen to get a little relief from misery every now and then, then there's the other part that just assumes it to be a product of PTSD.
Another issue with me being compliant is me thinking that I can just handle whatever it is myself and that I don't need meds. Grit my teeth and bear it when I'm depressed or mixed up, and have a great time when I'm euphoric, and then keep myself together when I'm in a rage. I tell myself that the meds won't do anything that I can't do myself. Honestly, I think all of this ideology has more to do with my upbringing than anything; that and I do carry a lot of paranoia.