Bad night last night with PTSD triggers. Had the best nurses to help talk me down though so I am so thankful for that. These wonderful people don't get paid enough for the life-saving work they do. They managed to make me laugh while I had SI...impressive. Another nurse helped me shop for a vaporiser (nicotine) online. Just random stuff that kept me alive another day. If I were allowed to give gifts I would buy them all the biggest bunch of flowers, or a new vaporiser! So, after all that i was still worked up but not SI. Meds knocked me out and here I am to start a new day.

Nervous as my T is meeting with my parents at midday today (in 2 hours) to discuss my diagnosis's, what they can do to help me and what they do that is unhelpful, amongst other things. I have a great relationship with my parents so mostly I feel ok about this. It is for my benefit, mainly because my father lives in denial of issues he cannot solve which only makes things worse for my mother and me. I won't be there as I need them to be able to talk about issues (PTSD) that may trigger me. I am mostly worried about them being made more upset about how unwell I am.

At 2 pm I have my solo appointment then my parents and I can discuss this all. Ohh, I'm nervous. Overall though, I think it will help.