I understand. I live with my ex boyfriend. We were together for 3 years before we moved across the country together. We lasted about another year that was completely miserable and we still live together. He has totally moved on and is living the dream life while I get to sit at home and watch. It's torture. I know exactly how you feel about having no friends. I have just made up my mind to do whatever it takes to move out. Being alone is better than being forced to recognize that you're alone, you know? I don't know where you live, or who you are, but I'm here if you need a friend.