When I first got sober, I went to every meeting that I could. At least one meeting a day and more often than not 2 or 3. Mostly went just to replace the time that I spent thinking about drinking by thinking about not drinking. The thing is that I never was a "good" AA person. Maybe it is social anxiety or something, but I'd always sit in the back of the room and try not to say much. I'd be polite when people offered me their phone number, but generally kept to myself. Didn't get a sponsor and honestly never made an effort to follow the 12 steps. The most important thing I got out of it was hearing from other people going through similar things as me and as a time replacement.

After a while, I didn't feel a need to go to the meetings. I replaced the time with other things and I tried to stay mindful about where I've come from. Thankfully I stayed sober since June of 2011 and got to a place where alcohol has no part in my daily routine.

But lately, I'm missing something. My depression has gotten worse and I feel very disconnected from others. I miss the community support, but not sure whether going back to AA is right for me. Maybe that is why I've been looking for online groups like this one. I sort of feel guilty going back to AA since I know I'm not going to use it the way its supposed to be used.

I guess my question is are there people like me? Wanting a place to go and hear people's stories but not following any steps or having a sponsor?