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Originally Posted by Theresa1991
That is just what I feel like. Many times I got anxiety, in my case I get hypochondric and I get obsessed with the illness I believe I have. I sleep far less, perceive sounds and movements differently, talk more or faster, move around the house restlessly and sometimes I get Kind of happy but it is more a Feeling like being pulled Forwards on a string that is fixed somewhere in my stomach. I get very irritable. I also abuse more substances and do very risky things in those states. Sometimes I get very angry and aggressive with no reason. This lasts between 2 days up to 2 weeks. So this could be hypo?
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Actually, this sounds somewhat similar I went through around the time I started having episodes. When I was around 15 years old, I had my first hypomanic/euphoric manic episode where I was engaging in very risky behavior, etc. Shortly after, my mood became irritable, extremely anxious, angry, impulsive, and paranoid. I began to fixate on different illnesses and experienced paranoid thinking that I was dying. My thoughts raced very, very rapidly from one delusion to another, but the thoughts seemed to have a fixed theme that something was "wrong" with me that separated me from others. I wasn't sleeping either. Each minute felt like hours. Sounds sounded so loud that it scared me.
I remember looking in the mirror and seeing my face as thinner and screaming. Then I started having somatic symptoms where I felt my skin crawl. I never experienced this health fixation ever again once my episode passed and learned some of what I was experiencing was psychosis, and I had other symptoms that met criteria for a mixed manic episode (I later found out). In my case, it turned out to be Bipolar 1. My episodes do not follow a health theme anymore....it was strange it was only centered around that at that particular time. I'm sure psychosis played a big role.
I hope you get relief soon. (((HUGS)))