Work is getting me down. The pressure in the environment is only getting worse. I feel I go above and beyond, but it's never good enough. I went from having a lot of energy just a few weeks ago to having none. Over the few days, I began to feel increasingly depressed. Especially over the weekend, yesterday, and today. I feel like crying, and it is not typical of me to cry. My anxiety is very high. I'm hoping it doesn't continue to get worse. I feel so slowed down, gloomy, very irritable and quick to snap when family gets on my case, unappreciated by friends when I try to be there for them....there's no use.

I'm angry at a lot of people in my life, yet too tired to do anything about the situations around me. I also think way too much about the past and don't really know where I'm going in life anymore or if things will ever get better. The past few years have been full of loss. I am thankful for what I have, but still feel empty. I don't really know if there's any solution. I'm just venting.