So after a long time we finally got together and it was good to see her and hear her family news, over the course of the afternoon I did outpour a few of the not so nice things that have befell my family over the last year - some of it was quite deep and dark (mh issues). She listened and gave some considered sensitive responses but she did seem a little floored - maybe I'm overanalysing it.

Trust and disclosure is anxiety making for me, I want to confide but historically have rarely been able to - there are very few people I will trust with the inner me. Then when I do I reproach myself and worry about what I've said. I get myself into such a knot over it sometimes I think it's best to never disclose at all.