@Elsa, omg, so sorry that happened to you! I'm not sure that I'd be able to leave the house that often or even talk to anyone anymore if that happened to me. Once is enough, but 5 times? OMG.

Did this occur at a party? I heard that a lot of assaults with young people tend to take place at parties or places where there's drinking and drugs involved. Not saying you were doing that, just saying. Even if you were, that doesn't change things at all. It was never your fault to begin with. You might've been drugged or asleep too.

I hope that you're in therapy for that. I would be wary of taking any drink from any stranger and never ever leave a drink unattended. It takes a second to slip a roofie in a drink. And I'd never ever go to a social event by myself or with someone who will leave me there as then you can become a lone target.

Always be around people, but even that apparently isn't bullet proof. You need to be around people who will have your back for sure. And carry pepper spray with you. Take self defense classes. I have been attacked a long time ago in a public place at a hotel during Halloween in a large crowded place. This guy bought me drinks then followed me to the hotel rooms.

Trigger warning.

Long story short, thought he was walking me back to my room, but being young and naieve, he pushed me into one and tried to rape me. I kicked him in the balls but he was wearing some protection. I pepper sprayed him and then ran like hell. He said, owe, *****!

I didn't call the cops as I was in shock. I tend to freeze when bad things happen every now and then. Sometimes I do react the way that I should though like fighting back. Anyways, if you use pepper spray, hold your breath as the fumes will make you choke. Practice with it. It probably saved me from getting raped and maybe killed. Never ever trust strangers no matter how nice they seem at first. Especially men.

Have to start my first day at work on period now, ugh! Will try to respond to all of you again soon. Have some stray kitties to deal with too. OMG, I need a break!!!!