Image. See its not really just one. Its millions. And they dont really flow from one another. They could fit together to make a single moment in time all over the world in different places with different people etc. Its ultimatly post apocalyptic. And really terrible. And terribly beautiful. I don't really know how to make it real, and I don't really want to convince myself I have enough power. I always thought I would have to lose absolutly everything, but I am not even sure what that means anymore, I don't even know what I have to lose or what I am to lose or if I exists at all.

Avatars, archetypes, Lucifer. I don't think I know anything, about any of these things except when it hits me. The rest of the time I dont really know or remeber. I have a lot of revalations, then re-revalations after forgeting everything. Its kinda cool because I love the revalationary feeling. Also the past 3 years or so I have been far to self absorbed to think about much other than myself and abstract ideas.
You mentioning all this stuff does take me back a bit, last winter, late winter, then again in early summer I was riding around all this stuff. I was telling myself I didn't want it, but I did. Because I love it. I really %#@&#! love it.
Words are engulphing me now, you brough my head somewhere with what you said, now all I can think is words and where they are from and what they secretly mean, and I didnt think about any of that stuff for ages.
And I keep thinking my name, my name makes me far to arrogant, because I am not her, but I know she isn't insulted by my arrogance because she is by definition wise enough to know better.
I love her.